Letting go and Getting Ready

We are coming to the end of another great adventure. The adventure of my freshmen year of college, and I can honestly say I do not want it to end. I know I have tons of awesome things in the summer and an amazing Sophomore year awaiting me, but I am not ready to let these memories and times go. There have been so many times that I will never forget from this year.

A first semester filled with finding friends, finding love, building those relationships, movie nights during open dorms, "How I Met Your Mother" marathons, Girl-Hating Parties, Bike rides and broken pedals, Bringin' Sexy Back, and so many more adventures.

To the winter month of January. The times of trying out shows, going to Indianapolis, endless amounts of time with the one I loved, Endless amounts of free time, the dreaded two classes that will have nothing to do with my major or future career, and crazy times of shenanigans.

Then to this semester that is coming to  a close. Spring. Life as a single man again. Adventures with One Way, late night Wal-Mart/Taco Bell runs, Adventures getting lost in Columbus, Learning Spiritual disciplines, New found friendships, A week in Orlando FL doing missions, The many friendships I made there, Bean dip, applying for Admissions...and not getting it, watching a movie I swore I never would, watching beautiful relationships prosper and fail, reading great books, and so many adventures.

I could not have asked for a better first year of college and I know the rest will hold many amazing adventures. I know the wait through summer with all that's going on will be fun and worth it, but I am not ready to say goodbye to this dorm. To these friends for three months. To anything. This is the one downfall to living six hours away.

This is a great time to just trust in the Lord. There will be other summers where I will not be spending them at home, but I promised to spend this one at home because I need money for school. I need to trust the Lord that He has a great plan for me. Lead me Lord. Direct me as I embark on this next chapter of the book.

Where am I now?

In this timeline we call life there are many acts of confusion that we go through. Sometimes we are not sure what direction one should take so we take a leap of faith. Sometimes that leap of faith works, yet other times it does not. What should one do in that tragedy of a leap? It would seem to be easiest to just talk to those involved and get away from the situation, but that could only hurt. I do not want to hurt anyone and yet I do not know how far I can go with this. I started with good intentions, but where am I now?

Silence. Listen. Silence.

Stress. Worry. Overwhelmed. Burnt Out. Too Much. Confusion. Unsure. Decisions.

Ah the words that are so rough, yet so prominent in our society today. Our noisy, always moving, always scheduled society. Why is it that we let ourselves be defined but such dehumanizing words?

We sometimes need to take a break in life.

Stop and Enjoy the Flowers.

Stop and Be Silent.

Read Scripture.

Journal.

Sit.

Sleep.

Pray.

Listen.

Listen for God's Will.

I know more than anything right now it's what I need to do.

Look to the Stars...

Stars. There are so many and yet they can so often be neglected. It is so easy to forget about that which is above us. I was sitting at what we call The Eternal Flame reading Scripture and Journaling this evening and when I arose I saw a shooting star. It was one star, but it was beautiful and caused me to continue to look at the sky. I noticed so many stars were out and they created beautiful shapes and glows. There was one particular star that was glowing bright and orangish. I remembered faintly from high school Astronomy class that it was a planet, but I cannot for the life of me remember which one. As I began to return to my dorm I could not take my eyes off of the stars; I was gazing up at the sky instead of looking straight ahead or down at the ground. Then I had a thought: How often do we stare ahead or down at the sidewalk and miss out on what's above us? We get so focused on the busyness of life that we neglect what is above us; what is given to us by our Creator. What would our lives look like if we gazed at the sky more? Let us take this to a deeper level now. How often do we go through our Spiritual Journey in life looking "straight ahead" at what we need to do for the future or "down at the ground" in the present? A better question would be how often do we truly look up to our Father? We pray for Him to lead us along His will and are our taught how He moves in mysterious ways, but do we truly see most of what He does? Maybe we need to break off from the distractions of life and actually look for God and what He is doing. How different would our life be if instead of going through the routine of life we actually looked for everything  that Christ is doing--the big and the small. So I want to invite everyone to stand with arms high and heart abandoned in awe of the ONE who gave it all, to stand with our souls surrendered and make all we are HIS.

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What is L...ust?

Lust. The evil word that we are commanded to stay away from. The word that when Christ mentions it he says "So if your eye—even your good eye—causes you to lust, gouge it out and throw it away..." (Matt. 5:29a) Think about the implications of that. Gauge out your eye!? Surely that would not take away the ability to lust. What then must we do? Famous theologian and leading New Testament Scholar N.T. Wright interprets this section to mean that by not giving into lust it may sometimes be so hard it feels like you are gauging out your eye. The point is to find ways to remove the temptation. But here is my main question, is Lust simply something sexual? Sure the connotation and most of the definitions are, but they can also simply mean "desire." Surely we have more desires than just sexual ones? Rob Bell, in his book Sex God: exploring the endless connections between sexuality and spirituality, says "There is so much to enjoy, yet we fixate on something we don't have." That I believe sums up what lust is. It promises us something that it can't give. It makes us want something we don't have. So what is Lust? I propose it is an overwhelming desire for anyone or anything that tries to manipulate and destroy our lives. It can be a desire for someone--maybe that girl you really like, or that boy you're dying to talk to--, A desire for the next new book--even though you still have hundreds you have yet to read--, A desire to spend time with certain people, watching certain movies, doing certain sports, doing certain activities. These are all good and godly things when done right, but when perverted by an evil desire they can become lust and thus not good for our lives. I propose we give those things we lust after to God and let God redefine them in our lives and make us new as His children with desires for the good of His creation.

God works in the dish room.

The other day I was working in the dish room--The dreaded job where so much food is wasted--and since not many people seem to want to talk during work there is a lot of time to think about things. Naturally, my mind was wandering this way and that and I started worrying about things that I had to do and issues. Well I spontaneously had the urge to just right there, during work, pray in my mind. I began praying to God about well everything and anything. In my prayer I realized that when I decided to go on the Spring Break Missions Trip to Florida I did not say anything to God about it or ask what His will is. How messed up is that? I then realized God is the first person I should have gone to and I began praying about the trip and then just for His will. In the middle of my prayer I had the memory from Winter Break come back where my parents said "I wish you didn't have to come back here for break, you should go somewhere like Florida!" and it hit me. They could have said any place for Spring break, but they said Florida...the place that the school is taking a Missions trip to. Also I could have thought of anything, any memory then...but it was this memory mentioning Florida that came to mind in my prayer for God's will. Then I felt a tug at my heart and realized the Florida trip is where God wants me to go. It is hard to describe this feeling I got when I realized it, but it was a combinations of peace and excitement to actually know for sure something that God wanted me to do. God works in mysterious ways. The next time that someone tells me that God can't use them, I'll simply tell them that He can because God even works in the dish room.